Arrgghh

I was led back here by a comment, have been REALLY slack about updating!!
I am really tired lately.
Have had a few probs (not with the weight loss, although I have SEVERELY plateaued... at 83.6kg at the moment)
Hubby lost his job. REAL bad news. We have our house on the moment at bottom dollar. had it sold on Sunday, but now it seems to have fallen through. Running out of money real fast. He needs to get a job ASAP.
Anyway. Holding our heads up. JUST.
Not so great and cheery at the moment. once we are through the other side it will be fine.
Sometimes life it like this hey.
Deal with it, and move on!

Thanks Lozzy

So, my sister, who lives in London, saw my blog and decided to send me a congatulations pressie. She said it is for hitting 80kg, but I am not allowed to wear them till then.
hehehe. Always did have trouble listening.
Aren't they gorgeous!! :)

tuesday weigh in.

83.8kg
yay!!!

Thanks

Thanks to everyone who have been leaving comments, it means alot.
Everyones support is what gets me through on the bad weeks.
Especially the written stuff. As that is the stuff I can look back on, and rehash, and get motivation from : )
So, thanks : )

Before to my after

These photos make me CRINGE when I see them... perfect reminders of where I will never be again.



These were taken at 115kg.
I started losing weight by myself, discovered that I needed additional support (and my Bestie was going to come with me....)
I started weight watchers about 6 months later, and weighed in at 107kg.

Photo update.

So...
From 115kg to just under 85kg...
Has taken over a year and a half... slow and staedy... right??
I have maintained over several stages of the weight loss.
Feeling really good now.
Proud : )

SO, I get to 85kg.
I am going for my lowest weight since meeting Glen, I don't weigh in last Tuesday...
I have been eating EVERYTHING in sight for the last 2 weeks. And I havent gone to the gym once!!!
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!!!!
What is it in my head that triggers this destructive behaviour????
I dont know what the right thing is to do... but I am going to face the music on Tuesday night, regroup, and keep going!
If the damage is great, it will destroy me, but I will be able to rebuild.
I am hoping it is minimal, and that it will only take a few weeks to recoop my loses...
God I am so nervous.
I made a vege soup today... almost point free, and am going to try and live off it for the next few days, as well as going back to the gym tomorrow morning, to minimise the damge (instead of escalating it, and doing damage till Tuesday, which is what my head is saying to do!!!... "just go and eat KFC... you may as well....." ARGGGHHH!!!)

Sick of Ireland yet??

Photos of Ireland finally!!

Photos from Ireland!!!!
I FINALLY found my disc of photos, it was at work, hidden at the bottom of the scrap paper stack!!!
Why on earth anyone would put it there!!!
Anyhow...
Photos from IRELAND!!!
Coming up...

Weigh in

HELLO!!!
Little bit of time between posts lately... have to become more organised!!
SO... Tuesday I weighed in at 85kg EXACTLY!!
Cant wait for my next weigh in, the scales showing under 85kg will not only be a major milestone, but i will have to write a list of new mini goals!!!
I started at 115kg on my scales at home.. (woah....)
Lost weight, joined WW and weighed in at 106.9kg.... (STILL woah!!!)

Mini goals are as follows...
1. Be under 100kg - DONE!!!!
2. Reach 10kg lost - 96.9kg - DONE
3. Reach 10% - 96.2kg - DONE!
4. Reach 95kg!! - DONE!!!!
5.Be under 90kg - 89.9kg!! - DONE!!
6.Halfway to goal - 87.9kg - DONE!!!
7.20% weight loss - 85.5kg - DONE!!
8.Under 85kg -

What can my next mini goals be??? Should I set larger milestones now that I am coming to the end of my journey???
I know that Under 80kg will be HUGE!!! (Havent been there since highschool...and even then, it was only just!!!)

Anyway... another huge event has occured!!
I have an RDO today, and guess where I am FINALLY going???
TO PICK UP MY WEDDING ALBUM!!!
Yes, it has only taken me over 2 and a half years to do so.... hahaha
So I am excited to see them...
I was at about 110kg give or take a few when I got married (Thank god for tight, heavily stitched wedding gowns...)
So, I am not as proud of them as I used to be... a bit disappointed in myself... it took those photos, and others to finally convince me that I needed help....
So... this time, on my 3 yr wedding anniversary, I will be at GOAL!!!!
That is 4 months away... So approximately 16 weeks...
All I need to lose is 1kg - 1.5 a week and I will be there....
hmmm...
don't think typing counts as exercise... so I'd better get CRACKING!!!

New photos of Dogs and My house

Especially for William to see, as it is now Winter in australia, and it has been raining for the last week. We finally got a reprieve yesterday, and had a beautiful sunny day, today is also sunny, but a little overcast.






The first dog you can see is Roxy (my little girl, she is 3 in Nov.)
Then Jack (my male staffy, he is 5 in November)

Weigh in Tuesday

Been to the gym every day, except Sundays, they are my day off.
Weighed in Tuesday, 1.4kg lost this week, now at 85.8kg - YAY!!!
I am now officially 21.1kg lighter, and ALSO officially lighter then what I was when I first met Glen!!!!
Also officially lighter then Glen!!! Woo Hoo!!

More photos.

Will add them kinda sporadically, cos it is easier... and then you get a spread out view of my hols... hehehe

So...
The first photo is of London Bridge, which is REALLY small compared to the harbour bridge, I thought it was going to be huge, Loz suggested we walk across it, and I was a bit apprehansive, and then we got there, and I was MILDLY disappointed to say the least!!!!
hehehe
The second photo is of Lauren, Ainsley and me in the oldest pub in England!!!
Where we had a really shitty cider before moving on to a pub that sold Bulmers!! yay...
The third photo is of London Architecture and a TAXI!! The taxis are so funny. they are like little black bugs.... Little OLD black bugs!!! hehe

BTW

Why cant I edit my font in blogger???
What is wrong with blogger ???
I have been trying for the last few entries and FUCK ALL is happening!!!!!

Gym Junkie

Yep, thats me.
Believe it or not!
I joined for the first time on saturday.
Sunday I had a rest.
I did Cardio on Monday night.
Cardio and a PT session on Tuesday night (had to skip WW... oops... be there next Tuesday tho...)
Cardio on wednesday night.
Cardio and the weights regime the PT set out for me Thursday night.
Cardio Friday night.
PT weights and Cardio this morning (Saturday...)
Tomorrow I am on the rights for work campaign march... So I get some incidental exercise in.... not going to the gym on sundays... its my day off... lmao...
It's great!!!
I cant wait to weigh in on tuesday... I hope to of lost at least a kilo...
I havent been tracking my points, and have eaten a fair bit, so I hope the exercise counteracted a small portion at least....
I suppose only time will tell...
Am going to start tracking again this week... today if I can find my damn books!!!!!

A few photos.

Only have a few.
Missing a few memory cards... got to sort thru my stuff and find them... for now tho : )

First daffodils after winter in London.
Me and my crazy sis. (lovely photo Loz... no more drinking for you...lol)
A side snap of The Tower of London.

Back Home

Well, it has been nearly a week back at home (boo hoo)
Back at work, and also went back to my Weight watchers meetings on Tuesday night.
Weighed in at EXACTLY the same!! lol
87.2kg...
I couldnt believe it....

Merry old London

Here ye, Here ye...
Sorry, had to do it.
Sooooo... back in London, back to sharing my sisters bed... hmmm...
Going to Phantom of the opera this week before I leave, and London Dungeon... thats all... not much happening in the days before I go...
Repacking my suitcases... attempting to make room for my sisters things that she wants me to take home.
I was going to go to France but have run out of money, it is just too expensive to get there... oh well, next time eh?
I am missing home alot more now, and Glen... my dogs... my friends...
except Kath... she is a bitch and she smells...
Anyway... I am about to research some more of London, so my time is running out....

Leaving... on a jet plane

Dont know when I'll be back again... to Sweden that is...
Fly out to London in 7 hours.
It has been a very tiring trip, and I still have two stops left.
France midweek, and hopefully Edinborough for a day trip...
We visited Skansen yesterday, the open air museum... its claim to fame being that it holds "everything swedish" from present and past...
Houses from all around sweden have been done up to suit their period, and also their situation.
Traditional swedish crafts are found, made and sold there, in shops.
And there is a zoo with Elk, Brown bears, foxes, wolves, wolverines etc... all traditional animals found in Sweden...
And for those who havent seen one... Elk are FRIGGIN HUGE!!!
Stephan said on the way to the Skansen, that they are like a big horse.... BULLSHIT!!! They are like friggin Reindeer on steroids!!!! Its like comparing David Driscoll and Damien, and saying Damien is huge!!!!
They are really really really big, really really tall.... about 7 foot tall... and 4 foot wide.... like a really big reindeer....
Anyway, after that we went to Vasamuseet.. (The Vasa Museum)
The Vasa is a massive, fully preserved viking ship!!!
It was AWESOME!! The highlight of my trip to Sweden...
I took heaps of photos, but they seriously just dont do it justice....
I will bore you all with them anyway tho!!! hehehe
So we are already saying our goodbyes, as the two eldest children have school and preschool today.
They are gone, and only Stephan and Victor are left.
We said goodbye to Karin last night, hopefully she will get to come home early and say goodbye again, but it is likely that we will not see her again before we go, which is very sad : (
So I must also go, I dont know when I will be able to post again... I have been spoilt having a computer so close at hand that works!!! lol

Swedish Fun

Hello from Sweden ...
We had dinner with Stephans sister Helene, on Monday night, her husband Mats cooked for us, a very traditional Swedish meal, cucumber salad, greens, potatoes,brown sauce, and ELK rissoles!! they were sooooo good!! On the side were little red berries that you can only pick in Sweden, they were very tart and tasted great with the meat.
For dessert we had a cheese cake, which was almost a baked rice pudding, traditional in the south of Sweden, and also very good!! We had cloudberries with the dessert, and they are also only found in forests of Sweden, and were delicious.
It was so nice to see Helene, Mats, Emil and Anton again, and I made sure to extend the welcome to Anton and Emil, that when they are old enough, and wish to travel the world, they are more then welcome to use my house as a home base... (Sorry babe... had to be done...)
Yesterday we went to see the old town with Stephans mum, Marianne, very small streets, some of the narrowest you have ever seen... big enough for one person only..
All the buildings are really old here, and Lauren says it reminds her alot of Italy.
The shops are lovely, some are almost as complicated as the streets inside!!
We also went to the history museum, to the Viking exhibition, it was pretty amazing, and interesting to think that Sweden is founded from alot their beliefs...Got lots of photos of artifacts, skeletons and swords (although, prob not as many as Glen would have liked...)
The last place we went to was the kings castle (the place he works... not his residence... cos he has TWO castles... hahaha)
Outside were guards all over the place... very cute men in uniform, very serious tho... all dressed up and so cross looking...
Lauren and I decided we wanted photos of the cross guards (so serious...) and proceeded to giggle and laugh while taking photos... poor young guard... I think he was a bit overwhelmed... I got a lovely photo of him with a big grin on his face : )
Anyway... today we are going to the kings castle... (residence this time..) and shopping with Stephan... we are going to try and buy as many unfamiliar items as possible to eat : ) (including chocolates... mmmm... never fear Helen... for every chocolate I have tried, I have purchased you its double... hehehe, Im not a huge choc eater tho, so there is only around 5-6 bars...)
Better go, hogging the computer again.

SWEDEN!!

ok, so it was a beautiful trip over... out of the plane window was mountains and snow...
as we headed towards Sweden, we could see large bodies of water everywhere... all partially frozen due to the cold.
After Stephan picked us up we drove through the country side till we reached the outskirts of Stockholm, where they live, in a suburb.
As we drove in a deer crossed our paths... Stephan slowed down for us to get a look.. and low and behold... there was FOUR of them... wandering around like they owned the place...
I was shocked... I knew deer were native... but even Kangaroos arent that game!!!
Karin says they enter her yard in spring and eat the heads off all the flowers!!!
Karin and Stephan are lovely people, and their kids are gorgeous..
This morning they headed out into minus four degree weather... ÖMG!!!
It was very cute, Victor, their one yr old looked like a little blue marshmallow.
We sat up and had a few drinks last night and a chat about what we want to do whilst here...
Shopping was at the forefront of both mine and my sisters minds... lucky for us... Karin being female.. it was also at the forefront of hers... lmao.
We are going to the largest Ikea today, with large shopping outlets that we are assured to get a bargain!!
Stephan is also going to attempt to get us over to the viking settlement here... although he feels that it may not open till summer, and we will be shit out of luck... : (
I am going into work with Stephan tomorrow, as lucky for me, his boss is a huge art collector!!!
There is art all over his work space, including Matisse, Picasso, and 2 Warhol prints!! HEAVEN!!
The one downside to travelling is that I am finding that I am out of whack every time I wake up in a different time zone... lmao...
Today I am 2 hours early... Loz is having no trouble tho, and is right now quite happily snoring away....
Well...
Thats all for now...
So will talk again soon.

Ironic

Ironic is that I am sitting in an internet cafe in Ireland... and this is the first contact with my blogger I have had in MONTHS!!!
WHY???
Because when I am sitting in grand old Sydney... I cant actually get fucken access, as my computer DIED!!
And now my hubby and I only have a CRAP computer that doesnt like blogger, and wont let me access it!!!
AAARRGGHH!!
Anyway....
Am in Irelnd... holidaying with my sis...
yay...
still in the 80s...
last weigh in was 87.2kg to be exact...
prob will have fattened up in England/ Ireland... stodgy food... and freezing weather... lotsa booze... bah!
Having fun tho... halfway through my hols... only 2 weeks to go.
Fly to Sweden tomorrow....