Today I complained out loud about a toothache...

One of my kids heard me and approached...

L - "Let me see Kellie, I am like a doctor, I know these things... my mum says..."

ME- "Really?"

L - "yep. open your mouth..."

I open my mouth and let him look.

L - "Hmmmmm. You know. It could be wibbley..."

I pretend to wiggle my tooth - "I don't think thats it mate..."

L - (looking again in my mouth) "well.... you know a tooth ache, could mean you have a sore tooth.... yep... (nodding) I think that's it. You probably have a sore tooth..."

Me... laughing at him... Him... not thinking it is so funny....

L- "No seriously. It does. "

Me- "Ok L. "

L- "It will probably clear up in a day or two..."

L starts to walk away before turning and telling me to "come see him if it's not better as maybe I should see a dentist and get it drilled...."

I love my kids.... they make my day :)

I'm getting a few signs of a looming cold.

COUGH - check

DRY THROAT - check

VERY TIRED - check

Right now, other than the tiredness, It is not impeding on my exercise...

I am so scared of getting sick, as I dont want it to be one more excuse why I stop exercising!!

PUSH ON my brain is saying... I at least must be up at 4:30am tomorrow for my run with the dogs.... they will knock if I don't, and get me up anyway.

AND I promised the kids that I would do yoga tomorrow... not that it burns many calories... but as long as it strengthens my muscles....

I have an actual fear of not moving.... like it is a virus... lol

Looking forward to Mona and Kath being home!!!! Only 5 more days for Kath!!!

Also looking forward to a PT session in Newcastle.. where I KNOW my arse will be kicked!!!

Trying to plan exercise in advance that I know I will get the maximum benefit from as well as enjoy.

Still looking for a good boxing class in Sydney....

Weekends....

UGH!

First weekend of choice, that I have had in what feels like FOREVER!!

I am in the process of signing out. and going to spend a half hour on the treadmill, as I have already cleaned my house... twice...

Cooked taco mince, bolognaise, a red thai BEEF curry, a red thai CHICKEN curry, chicken pizzas, popcorn chicken, a caeser salad and boiled a dozen eggs for the week... and my freezer is now overflowing with approximately 35 serves of these meals.....

I spent the day with my mother law...

My Saturday night kicking a gladiators arse at a friends place.... (For those NOT in the know PS3 ROCKS!!! EVERYONE NEEDS A GLADIATOR ARSE KICKING GAME!!!)

Took the dogs for a run.

AND finished with a yoga session... to try and destress...

NOW I am just BORED!!!!!!

(Really need a PS3 of my own..... so I can kick arse at home...)

I don't want to eat... which is a change.... but I DO want something to do.....

So I find myself on the computer... blogging about nonsense... while procrastinating about the treadmill...

Oh yeah....

the treadmill....

1600 metre run...

In hindsight... running at 1pm, on a hot Sydney day, is NOT the most optimal way to improve you times...

BUT... I did knock 46 seconds off none the less!!!

Running it in 11min 12 sec. (*running* for lack of a better word... since I ran the straights, and walked the kerbs to try and recover!!!)

AND it gives me a better goal to aim for when I run in the cool of the morning!!!

Thank goodness for the 400 metre track next door to my work!!!

It has been calling my name since I started back on Monday!

Suck on that Ballam!!!

ALSO I attempted Yoga again with the kids.

They are so full on into it!!!

I have a book here now, that I am attempting to translate, so I can become a yoga master.

I will be better than a bunch of 3-5 yr olds!!!!

lol

Yoga with kids

No typo people... I tried my hand at "kids yoga".

Kids Yoga, being a set of cards that my fearless leader S. had handed down, with "simple instructions" and "easy to follow pictures"...

Easy to follow my arse!!

What ensued was me demonstrating poses, that I am SURE, ONLY a kid could get into... sweating profusely for near 45 minutes... and feeling rather defeated when the kids got up, and decided a running race was in order....

A running race???

After 45 minutes of EXTREME KID YOGA!!!!

They musn't of been doing it right.....

The New Me

Sooooo...

Most people are unaware. But 4 weeks ago, I embarked on a journey to "change my life", thinking that, realistically, I might drop a few kilos, learn a few things, and MAYBE when I got back, people MIGHT notice I had lost... and then I would "TRY" to stick to it....

What I got, I was unprepared for.

I got a wake up call.

And I changed my life.

4 AMAZING trainers (Mac, Gav, Grant and Beau) , One gorgeous counsellor/ psychiatrist (Amina), and a very headstrong and determined role model (Adro) later.... I can finally, for the first time in 32 years, say how AMAZING I am!!!

I. LOVE. ME.

What I did or didn't lose, isn't important. They are just numbers....

What I gained, is a healthy respect for getting active, and eating to fuel your body....

I will never be the same.

And I don't ever want to be.

xxx

96.7

Would like to lose 5 kg by the end of March, but am trying to not get hung up on the numbers... focus on 6 healthy meals a day, including 2 protein, 3 vege and 2 fruit... + grains and dairy, drink plenty of water and exercise 3 times a week...

I figure that if the weight doesnt come off, whilst I am doing the right thing by my body, then it is not meant to...

I just want to live a healthy lifestyle, and optimise my chances of being here for a long time : )

BFN - Warning... vent coming...

Am just sick of seeing that BFN on the pregnancy tests every month.. am REALLY down about it right now, I think because of the hormones I am being pumped with... making it worse..

So frustrating to see people who really didn't want to be pregnant, don't know what they want, or who just have accidents, or who fall first cycle all around me....

After five years I just feel like screaming "GIVE ME A FUCKING BREAK!!!"

It is becoming a little too much for me... and there are few people who ACTUALLY care or understand... lots of people pretend to care... or look at me with pity and then expect me to talk... ??

I am just a little beyond it, and hope that people don't take this offensively... but after five years... I just need to get it out...

Am a little angry right now... but I will get over it... : )

Just writing it down has made me feel better....

Hello All!!

Hi all on this fine Wednesday morning.

Soooo..

I am now on IUI... am not at an ideal weight range, but am seeking help for this through healthy diet and exercise, not with unreal expectations...

I am taking chlomid and progynova to help prepare my body for IVF!

Am so excited at the prospect of perhaps FINALLY being pregnant..

So many different things going on in my life... With preparing for the pregnancy, health wise and also trying to do the right thing by my body : )

Unfortunately that is not being made easy, as I am off work today with some stupid virus, that is making me REALLY dizzy and nauseous... : (

Anyway... that is me today.. boring .. lol

Hopefully I will have more exciting news next post!

Loss this week

Lost 2.2 kg this week!!

Worked really hard, walking every day and doing an aqua aerobics session on Thurs night : )

Really would like to get to 65kg this time around!

Am currently sitting on 97.2

I'm baaacckkkk

Back to the grind.

: )